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Saturday, June 29, 2013

Published story - Centre of Attention

My first "official" published story!!

So I didn't post this before, but I got a story published through an Australian (/NZ) short story competition.



http://www.c-pubs.com.au/products-page/asrc-security-resilience-imprint/australian-security-nightmares-short-stories/ .  Some of the other stories are pretty good but I wouldn't blame you if you turned straight to page 72.

Buy a hardcopy or download the free (!!) pdf via http://www.securityresearch.org.au//uploader/files/Aust_Security_Nightmares-Short_stories.pdf

I spent a solid few days on this one.  It was fairly easy to write plot-wise as a lot of this is linked to public health emergency planning, which I am well up to speed on.

The hard part was thinking about how to present it.  Writing it as a feature magazine article was a bit of a cop-out in that it removes the emotional impact, which is why I lean heavily on the "mad mullah" topic and also try to get the reader to feel some of the vicarious emotion via the wife.

It would have worked easier as a straight third-person story but I wanted to show the passage of time which is difficult in third-person in a short story, and I think by hinting at things that - in the future after the events of the story - the reader "should" know, it's a shorthand trick to make the world in the story a lot larger.

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Idealism is for hippies

Good quote I heard yesterday, related to Buddhist thought.  "The definition of happiness is not having what you want.  It is wanting what you have."

Yes, very Christmas card or fortune cookie type statement, but there is a lot of truth to it.  Good old Tony Robbins recommends a daily walk matched with some time spent thinking of what you're thankful for.  That's a bit too woo for me but I have to admit that at least once every day at the moment I stop in my tracks and laugh at how charmed everything seems to be at the moment.

Time to get back on the horse for the novel writing.  I have outlined Book 1 and figured out the chapters that need adding before I get to Draft 2.  I have also outlined Book 2 and will pound out a first draft of most of this for the July Camp NaNoWriMo.

Camp NaNoWriMo handle - "Perpetual idealist clawing back an essential thirst for life after a long period of self-serving introspection and apprehensive equivocation thinly masked as cynicism."  A pretty wanky I know, but things are looking pretty on track right now.  Now I just have to start chipping away at those new years resolutions...

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Farenheit 451

"We'll go on the river.  He looked at the old railroad tracks.  Or we'll go that way.  Or we'll walk on the highways now, and we'll have time to put things into ourselves.  And some day, after it sets in us a long time, it'll come out our hands and our mouths.  And a lot of it will be wrong, but just enough of it will be right.  We'll just start walking today and see the world and the way the world walks around and talks, the way it really looks.  I want to see everything now.  And while none of it will be me when it goes in, after awhile it'll all gather together inside and it'll be me.  Look at the world out there, my god, my god, look at it out there, outside me, out there beyond my face and the only way to really touch it is to put it where it's finally me, where it's in the blood, where it pumps around a thousand times ten thousand a day.  I'll get hold of it so it'll never run off.  I'll hold onto the world tight some day.  I've got one finger on it now; that's a beginning."

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Running test

One of my resolutions has been to measure my 1 mile pace and try to beat it by 1 minute by the end of the year.  I have been doing a lot of long distance runs lately so my legs are a bit tired, but have been feeling more or less ok.  I just did a 1 mile (4 laps of a 400m track, plus 10 metres) time trial and got...

7:55

Not about to break any records anytime soon, but I figure even if I had had a good rest my peak at the moment will be around mid seven minutes.  I live for the slow twitch, not these sprint distances!

Resolution A: Run one mile in under 6:55 (4:17 pace) by December

Resolution B: Run 1.5 mile (2.4 km) in under 10 minutes 30 seconds (4:22 pace) by December (NZ Army entry level fitness criteria


Monday, December 31, 2012

2013 new years resolutions


Okay - this year I'm going to list these in January so I can't cheat...

Good progress at work, balanced personal life with lots of time with H & S, general good health, happiness etc goes without saying.

Top 5:

1.      Go to Australia to see Alan, Maggie and the boys, and Sally, Keith and the boys

2.      Beat my 2011 marathon time of 4:16:49 by finishing Auckland Marathon 2013 in under four hours

3.      (Write/) Finish & send a completed novel to >1 agent

4.      Scan in my grandfather’s WWII letters (again)

5.      Achieve something else major that I didn’t expect/plan


Other resolutions:

6.      Achieve Associate Emergency Manager certification through the International Association of Emergency Managers (IAEM)

7.      Do a post-graduate level paper/course

8.      Complete the November 2013 ‘Nanowrimo’

9.      Get another tattoo (been an annual resolution but really have to figure out what the hell I'd want)

10.  Take 100 quality photos in a 24 hour period

11.  Cook my way through one cookbook

12.  Write >10 quality blog entries (aim for monthly)

13.  Measure my baseline track mile time in January and improve this by 1 minute by end of December

14.  Paint the bathroom, washhouse, dining room and beams in lounge & master bedroom

15.  Take a sea kayaking course and go out in the kayak >5 times

16.  Do the Auckland Ironman 70.3 half-IM in January 2014 (yeah 2014 I know.. but it’s still a 2013 resolution)

17.  Build a shed

18.  Write and send a paper to a professional journal

19.  Learn to juggle 4 balls

20.  Join >2 clubs (doesn’t matter what the club is)


2012 new years resolutions – Judgement Day


I didn't post this at the start of 2012, but here's me facing up to the 2012 new year resolutions I set in January:

1.      Beat my 2011 marathon time of 4:16:49 by finishing Auckland Marathon 2012 in under four hours.
 100% – bad sprain/tear in my ankle put me out of action for this, but I’m calling it a pass because of the amazing experience running with Shelley for her first ever ½ marathon, and trusting my fitness & state of my ankle for the run.
2.      Finish my novel ‘Sideswipe’ and send to >1 agent.
50%, I finished my first novel this year – in first draft so yet to send to an agent.
3.      Get at least one credible job offer from an international organisation.
N/A - went fishing half-heartedly for options at start of the year but did not follow through once we decided to stay in NZ.
4.      Buy $1,000 in shares.
0%
5.      Achieve Associate Emergency Manager certification through the International Association of Emergency Managers (IAEM).
0%
6.      Do 100 press-ups in a row.
0% - Hate to think how many I can do in a row but lets just say it's no improvement from January!
7.      Go to Malaysia for my brother’s wedding in April.
100% - Had an amazing time!
8.      Sell our house.
100% - And bought an amazing house!
9.      Complete the November 2012 ‘Nanowrimo’
100% - And 100% harder than 2011 but got through it!
10.  Get another tattoo
0% - still can’t decide what I’d get
11.  Run 20 new routes
100% - loving the Blockhouse bay road/trail/beach running!
12.  Take 100 quality photos in 24 hours
0% - fail
13.  Cook my way through one cookbook
30% - was right on track with this and having fun, but stopped for no particular reason
14.  Change my ‘look’ five times
80% - changed things up, even grew a beard for a while.  Not a total change but had fun.
15.  Write 10 quality blog entries and post (& Twitter) them.
100% - Bottom dropped out of this by mid-year but had fun with some posts at start of year. http://stasisremoved.blogspot.co.nz/
16.  Read 26 books
50% - halfway there?
17.  Learn jujitsu
0% - fail.  Where did that resolution come from?!  I think I was drunk
18.  Scan in my grandfather’s WWII letters (again)
0% - did not get around to this.
19.  Learn A-Z in sign language
0% - fail
20.  Improve my mile time by 1 minute (tested myself on the track on 3rd January 2012 at 7 mins 19 secs)
N/A – ankle injury

So… 45% for this year for a very random list of resolutions, but out of the actually important resolutions (1, 7, 8, 9 and 18), I got 80%!

Also... wrote my first ever full (first draft) novel, got my first ever short story published - from a competition too, and managed to balance work and family life - spending lots of time with Shelley and Hayley..

Go me.

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Philosophy blows

I usually hate philosophy, but have downloaded some Nietzshe as audiobooks, partly to look for quotes for a book I am writing, and partly because I have always been meaning to get around to reading some of his work.

Of course with Nietzsche you know you're in for a rough ride.  Take the quote below.  It's a long quote but it hit me in the gut.

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The objective man, who no longer curses and scolds like the pessimist, the IDEAL man of learning in whom the scientific instinct blossoms forth fully after a thousand complete and partial failures, is assuredly one of the most costly instruments that exist, but his place is in the hand of one who is more powerful He is only an instrument, we may say, he is a MIRROR—he is no "purpose in himself"
The objective man is in truth a mirror accustomed to prostration before everything that wants to be known, with such desires only as knowing or "reflecting" implies—he waits until something comes, and then expands himself sensitively, so that even the light footsteps and gliding-past of spiritual beings may not be lost on his surface and film Whatever "personality" he still possesses seems to him accidental, arbitrary, or still oftener, disturbing, so much has he come to regard himself as the passage and reflection of outside forms and events
He calls up the recollection of "himself" with an effort, and not infrequently wrongly, he readily confounds himself with other persons, he makes mistakes with regard to his own needs, and here only is he unrefined and negligent Perhaps he is troubled about the health, or the pettiness and confined atmosphere of wife and friend, or the lack of companions and society—indeed, he sets himself to reflect on his suffering, but in vain! His thoughts already rove away to the MORE GENERAL case, and tomorrow he knows as little as he knew yesterday how to help himself He does not now take himself seriously and devote time to himself he is serene, NOT from lack of trouble, but from lack of capacity for grasping and dealing with HIS trouble
The habitual complaisance with respect to all objects and experiences, the radiant and impartial hospitality with which he receives everything that comes his way, his habit of inconsiderate good-nature, of dangerous indifference as to Yea and Nay: alas! there are enough of cases in which he has to atone for these virtues of his!—and as man generally, he becomes far too easily the CAPUT MORTUUM of such virtues. Should one wish love or hatred from him—I mean love and hatred as God, woman, and animal understand them—he will do what he can, and furnish what he can. But one must not be surprised if it should not be much—if he should show himself just at this point to be false, fragile, questionable, and deteriorated.
His love is constrained, his hatred is artificial, and rather UN TOUR DE FORCE, a slight ostentation and exaggeration. He is only genuine so far as he can be objective; only in his serene totality is he still "nature" and "natural." His mirroring and eternally self-polishing soul no longer knows how to affirm, no longer how to deny; he does not command; neither does he destroy. "JE NE MEPRISE PRESQUE RIEN" [“I despise almost nothing”]—he says, with Leibniz: let us not overlook nor undervalue the PRESQUE!
Neither is he a model man; he does not go in advance of any one, nor after, either; he places himself generally too far off to have any reason for espousing the cause of either good or evil. If he has been so long confounded with the PHILOSOPHER, with the Caesarian trainer and dictator of civilization, he has had far too much honour, and what is more essential in him has been overlooked—he is an instrument, something of a slave, though certainly the sublimest sort of slave, but nothing in himself—PRESQUE RIEN!
The objective man is an instrument, a costly, easily injured, easily tarnished measuring instrument and mirroring apparatus, which is to be taken care of and respected; but he is no goal, not outgoing nor upgoing, no complementary man in whom the REST of existence justifies itself, no termination—and still less a commencement, an engendering, or primary cause, nothing hardy, powerful, self-centred, that wants to be master; but rather only a soft, inflated, delicate, movable potter's-form, that must wait for some kind of content and frame to "shape" itself thereto—for the most part a man without frame and content, a "selfless" man.  
- BEYOND GOOD AND EVIL: by Friedrich Nietzsche - Translated by Helen Zimmern